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HannahRae
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So I decided to revive myself here since my final surgery is coming up in june 2015.

I remember posting something reeeeeaaaally depressing here a while ago
but it was probably  just me being moody late in the night LOL.

I'd like to introduce myself properly,
talk and get to know more people around my age here!!

I'm Hannah, 17, CA, Born with a unilateral cleft lip & palate,
into watching Anime, reading manga, digital art and animation,
piano, guitar, uke (hip hop, pop, r&b, kpop, jpop, SOME rap)

I have a lot of self esteem issues, like everyone else, and attempted suicide
3 times this school year, first by hanging but the rope managed to snap, second by overdose, but I was hospitalized just in time, the third time by drowning, but again I was saved.
I kinda took this as a sign from God like "Hey, I'm not done with you yet"
 I also concluded that my desire to live was stronger
than my desire to die. (for some reason the thought of "Omg I won't be able to eat all the good desserts and food out there if I die" kinda hit me)

While at the hospital I intern at, I've met and made so many friends/patients my age on their death bed
( I interned in ICU ).
They taught me the value of life. While I am here attempting to solve a temporary problem with a permanent solution,
this suffering person is fighting to live.
I realized killing myself would be insulting my friends who have now recently passed this week.

I've become more happy, more proud, and content with life. My surgery is coming up, I will be turning over a new leaf,
I will try harder to talk to people while looking them in the eye.

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger"

What is your story?

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April 24, 2015 at 1:11 AM Flag Quote & Reply

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